The look in your eyes makes me crazy...

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 23:27:02 GMT

THIS IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION FOR NOW. GO TO MY BLURTY FOR JOURNAL SHIT. LATER

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 01:11:13 GMT

im talking about pancakes becasue they are good it's matthew by the way HI! pancakes are good the other day as a matter of fact. yesterday i was at ihop with chris at 8 in the morning becasue we are going o hang out in the morning morer yesterday was birthday ok mommys is here i am leaving now bye.

P-R-E-P! PREP PREP PREP!!!!

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 20:56:00 GMT

yoooo. this week has been kinda fast paced with alotta stress in it. friday we had our first day of classes. and my schedule is pretty damn good. i like all my teachers and everything seems pretty chill. im just a little nervous of how hard this year is gonna be tho. yesterday was saturday. i had work in the morning and then i came and slept for awhile. after that mulroy came over and then my dad took us over to caven to watch prep play hudson catholic. we had so much fun with the marauders and all the henchmen. everyone was going completely bullshit. especially when we scored the game winning touchdown. the whole place just erupted and the prep crowd started going insane and banging heads together and shouting obsene stuff at the hudson catholic people. but that of course is okay because hudson catholic is the school for the prep rejects. after that mulroy's dad drove me home.

this morning i worked again til about 11. then when i came home my mom told me some bad news. turns out my cousin chris was at a party or something last night and someone pulled a gun on him and shot him. apparently the bullet went through his jaw and neck. hes in the hospital right now and he cant talk or do anything. its such a fucked up world we live in. i just cant believe that shit. its crazy. like you hear about stuff like this happening but you'd never think it would affect your family.

so yea im babysitting my sister tonite cuz my parents are going to a wedding. gimme a call cuz i know ill be bored.

"Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna"

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 17:49:30 GMT

hey im really busy today with caddying and alot of other stuff. then tonite im going to watch prep play hudson. so yea i will write some stuff tomorrow i guess. call me if you need me. later dudes

first day

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 02:16:43 GMT

well well well. today was the first day of school for my junior year. and wat an enthralling day it was. i boarded the newark city subway around 10ish today and took that and then the path over to good old jersey city. where i was greeted by mr. tintle and mr. mulroy. we chilled in the court yard for like 45 minutes. this kid aj like passed out and cut his face open so that was very interesting stuff. after that we went into the gym to listen to a number of rousing speeches by mr. cuddihy and mr. dandorph. after that we waited with our homerooms and then got all our books and shit. then i went and got my new locker. its nice. some prime real estate right there off to the side and out of traffic. after that i came home and just friggin chilled. so yea i am kind of tired and i dont feel like going into any detail. i will post some funner stuff tomorrow probably.

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 21:49:11 GMT

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Maybe someday you will see

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 02:47:06 GMT

hey. today was just kind of a weird day. i caddied at around 730 this morning and it was actually really chilly. it felt like october just came right up and slapped me in the face. and it made me feel so sad. like i just wanted to cry. i always feel like that on those cool fall mornings. its just weird i dont really know. i spent the rest of the day at the pool. i just feel really upset because today is the last day of the summer and i have so many great memories from it.

i feel really stressed out about alot of stuff. mucho thanks to sara and ashleigh for just talking to me today. i really needed it and you guys were such a big help. you have no idea how much it meant to me.

"Maybe someday you will see
just how much you meant to me..."

I held your hand, and sat there knowing... that we'd make it through.

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 02:57:59 GMT

hi there. the past week has been ehh arite i guess. on thursday i went to the mall with lex, ashleigh, this girl katie, and her bf brian. lex was like brutal to me the whole time. all she did was like punch me, kick me in the nutz, and curse me out for no reason. and she dragged me to the men's fragrance section and sprayed with every goddamn cologne they had there. and she sprayed some of it in my eye which burned really bad. basically i hadda put up with alotta shit. and i was really upset about it right after it. but i know that its just her personality. and behind all that she really does love me and stuff. and i love her too. on friday i really felt shitty and wasnt in a good mood. so i just stayed at home and layed around all day and like read my summer reading books. yesterday, saturday i had work in the morning. 2 bags. 100$. after that i came home and slept for a few hours. after that i came home and i had to lifeguard from 5-10. it was long and tiring. today i caddied again. another 2 bags. another 100$. then i came home, ate like 3 bagels, and slept for like 4 hours. for some reason i think alexis and ashleigh are like pissed off or annoyed with me. lex like wont pick up my calls or acknowledge the fact that im alive unless i text her. and ashleigh just seems pissed. its almost like they dont wanna talk to me anymore.

yea so summer is ending....

dare i become emo again?....

PSH NO FUCKIN WAY!

this summer has been one of the best if not the best. i met alotta cool people and just had so much fun. and most importantly i met a totally awesome girl, Alexis who makes me really happy.

"I held your hand, and sat there knowing, that we'd make it through."

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 16:29:13 GMT

I've been here before, a few times. And I'm quite aware, we're dying...

My hopes are so high

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 14:33:46 GMT

yo. its been awhile since i've done a real update. i dont really remember too much of the past week. just alot of caddying and lifeguarding. friday i had to work the late shift with gab. after that i came home and chizilled and talked to alexis, ashleigh, lex's mom, and her brother eric. wow thats alotta people. and it was a fuckin WEIRD conversation. lets just leave it at that. the next morning i caddied. 2 bags. 100$ in 3 hours. sweeeeeeet. after that i came home and slept for like 4 hours. then mulroy showed up at my house. and we solved the rubik's cube dammit! dont question our method of doing it. yea after that we went to the pool and fucked around for a little bit. then alexis, ashleigh and kristen came and we chizilled ad it was muy funno. yes but then alexis put this lip venom stuff on. and i just thought it was like regular lip gloss. ya know? nothing special. yea i was kinda wrong in thinking that. cuz then i kissed her and after i did it that lip venom shit BURRRRRRRNED my face the whooooole nite and i was in pain. yea kinda like that dashboard confessional song. lol. but ya know wat? i dont really care if it hurted becuz lex is worth it. so yahoo.

yea sunday. caddied again. 2 bags. another 100. nice. came home, slept for a lil bit. ya know that old chestnut. then ashleigh called me and wanted me to go to her house cuz alexis and kristen were there too. so i went and we started out playing hot beans. but then it turned into hot everything else. like hot pizza, hot rocks, hot fists to face. and now i have decided that i dont really like hot beans anymore.

monday i like actually read books? and stuff. it was for school tho so its okay. uhh then like midafternoon mulroy just decided to show up in belleville. and of course we being his 2nd family took him in. we went to the mall and got lost like 8 times looking for a bathroom. it wasnt the funnest of times. from now on im not going to the mall unless theres a girl with me cuz i dont know what i am doing there.

yesterday was tuesday and it like sucked ass. all i did was babysit my sister and clean and read books again. today im not really doing anything important and im just really bored and out of it i dont know why. blah.

yea i am done i guess.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me. So I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst. To break or bury. Or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.

ya there ya go. thats the dashboard song i was talking about.

later dudes.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 23:23:14 GMT

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Mon, 30 Aug 2004 16:02:52 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

You're so beautiful to me...

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 23:32:53 GMT

heyyyyyllooooo there. it has been awhile since i last updated. uhh nothing too much went on. this week has just felt really weird. i dont know exactly why. it seems like everyone else is just going along with their lives and im just standing still watching the world pass me by. on sunday i lifeguarded from 2:30-7. then on monday i really didnt do anything exciting...just went to my sat class and stuff. tuesday was funnish. i went to the gym like from like 11-12ish and then i came home and just played my bass and stuff. then mulroy took the train here and arrived around 4. his pants were kinda wet tho so we put them in the dryer for like a half hour. after his pants were dry we went to ashleigh's house and hung out with her and alexis and kristen and i was really happy about that cuz i missed lex so much and stuff. uhh...yesterday was just so blah. i was supposed to caddie in the morning but the plans got screwed up so i didnt caddie and i just went to lifeguard instead. today i actually did caddie and it was a pain in the ass cuz it was like a 5 hour round and the guys sucked SOOOOOO BAD and they played SOOOOO SLOW and to top it off, they were a bunch of cheap fuckin assholes. fun fun fun. so ya then i came home and got changed and lifeguarded til like now basically. so here i am at home. yahoo. tomorrow im gonna caddie again and then lifeguard from 7-10.

oooo hey i almost forgot...i got my school info with all my teachers today and im pretty happy cuz i lucked out on alotta teachers.

Espanol- my swim coach Mr. Thomson who is wayy cool
Religion- McCarthy/Fletcher
US History- Mr. Villarino...???? new guy? im guessing?
AP English- Campion
Algebra 2/Trig- Ms. Panzera....yet another new teacher?
Geoscience(aka Rocks 4 Jocks)- Mr. Boyle
Christian Service stuff- Sr. Frances
so ya all you prep guys, write some comments if u have the same teachers.

yea i guess im out... later skaters

"I'd go through hell for you and...
I haven't been this scared...
In a long time...
And I'm so unprepared...
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words...
A simple melody...
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful to me."

I'm very lucky to have my crew

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:26:54 GMT

hey. the weekend is over and stuff. it was kind of weird. i had alot on my mind. friday started out okay but then it just went downhill from there. alexis and ashleigh were supposed to come to hang out with me and then they didnt so i was upset and i was a total asshole to basically everyone. i was nasty to like everyone and then i felt really bad later. special thanks to mulroy for helping me keep my head. i wouldve broken up with alexis if it wasnt for him. so yes thanks dude. so yea we hadda picnic, then came back to my house, broke some furniture, put it back together, sang really bad, played grand theft auto, then went to see the village. i dont think people really understood what it was all about. behind the suspense and everything it was really about a group of people who are trying to escape their previous heartache by living in a world of total innonence. and the other main theme of it was a love story. you need half a brain to figure out what was going on though so most people probably didnt understand it.

then on saturday i worked in the morning and made 50. then i came home and slept for a looooong time. then i went to my aunt's house and we took mulroy too which was cool and we had lots of fun. today was a very blah day. i slept really late and then woke up and went to work from 2:30-7. after that i came home and ate pizza.

yea so then i got a fucking weird call from this strange person who i thought was ahsleigh and alexis prank calling me cuz they were saying all this crazy stuff and sounding really horny and i was like NO NO NO and they wouldnt stop so i hanged up on them.

ok i guess im done. thanks to everyone who put up with me this weekend.

"I'm very lucky to have my crew
They stood by me when she flew
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you."

later dudes

i ruin everything

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 23:10:54 GMT

i am really happy today no not really uhm this isn't jones it's matt jones feels like crap today and i don't want to see the village for various reasons heh heh heh anywho jones is coming back i have to post now.

Let me hold you....

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 17:44:04 GMT

hey. i am in a good mood today. i think its cuz today im getting to hang out with people instead of being stuck in this house. it feels like its haunted as corny as that sounds. i just need to get out. so today. PICNIC! yahoo. yea. i am in such a good mood today like you have no idea. i dont really have alotta time to write cuz mulroy's on his way here on the train so i'll probably post more stuff later.

peace.

there are only so many ways i can make love with my hand

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 22:01:29 GMT

hey. apparently my girlfriend is too busy to hang out with me. so if anyone wants to hang out with me, call my house number. 973-759-0018. i'll be in my room jerking off cause thats pretty much the only action i've been getting lately. peace.

change of scenery

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 16:48:14 GMT

ok so apparently my mom reads this thing cause it seems like everyday she has something to say about what i write here. thats great. the one place i thought that i could just put some thoughts out for other people to see without having to listen to some input from adults and now i cant even have that anymore. so therefore im gonna just use this for little crappy stuff and ill use the myspace site for everything else. if u dont have a myspace account just lemme know. i'll hook you up with the password and everything.

thats basically all for now. later

im fucking pissssssed....

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 23:59:25 GMT

ugh. i hate my mom. she wont let me go hang out with ashlee and lex tonite just cuz shes too fucking lazy to drive for like 10 minutes. fucking bitch. apparently she doesnt know me at all nor does she have any idea as to what's important in my life. i havent seen lex in like 2 weeks and i miss her. i kno that doesnt mean jack shit to my mom tho. she cud give a shit less tho. even though i fucking work my ass off in the heat on a golf course and then let her take the money i worked hard for; she couldnt let me go. i guess all 732$ that i gave her so she cud pay fucking bills doesnt mean anything. after all the money i gave her, she cant drive me somewhere 10 minutes away. nice. im so fucking pissed off rite now. ya know wat fuck this im not finishing this shit.

YeA DoLpHiNs

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 19:02:54 GMT

yyyyyeeeeeeaaa dolphins. kickin some jaguar ass last nite 16-5. yea even though they're gonna be shit for the rest of the season

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 02:32:41 GMT

Hey you, see me
Pictures, crazy
All the world I've seen before me passing by
I've got nothing to gain to lose
All the world I've seen before me passing by

You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it anymore...

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 15:56:42 GMT

ok i got back from work about and hour ago. i made 80$ and now im home and im watching sports center so yahoo.

yesterday was...ehh...arite. i guess. i went to the gym at like mid-afternoon. i did back and bi's and then an ab cycle. after that i came home and showered and like 2 minutes after i got out of the shower tintle and mulroy showed up. we had lots of el fun-o. we played my bass. sang that song "Kiss Me" from that movie with rachel leigh cook and freddy prinze jr., played some grand theft auto, watched the national spelling bee, made fun of the kids in the national spelling bee, watched mulroy eat guitar picks and drank green tea. after that mulroy, tintle, and my sister destroyed my famous stars and straps hat cuz they are all a bunch of assholes like that. but its okay i still love them. after that we went to the commonz and we met gab, carrie, henri, mulroy's friend sophia, and henri's brother matty and his friend jj. god i fucking hate those kids. they are sooooooo annoying and don't shut the fuck up.

yea so last nite was kind of a dissapointment. very depressing. i honestly think i would have had a funner time if it was just me, tintle, and mulroy back at my house just hanging out cuz i really didnt have a good time last nite. and i think tintle can sympathize with me about that.

so yea if anyone wants to hang out sometime this week gimmea call cuz i am bored and kinda lonely and stuff.

"I'm sick of always hearing
Sappy love songs on the radio
This place is fucking cursed in its plague
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes"

i am so tired

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 19:02:09 GMT

yea so i was supposed to go to six flags today but it was raining and thundering and some other stuff this morning so i just spent most of the day sleeping. yesterday mulroy took the train to belleville so we cud go see napoleon dynamite and he put an away message telling people to come so james judge did and he talked alot during the movie and stuff. and we saw nick, ryan, and sarch there cuz they were seeing napoleon dynamite too which is like the coolest movie ever and everyone should go see it. after getting dinner and driving mulroy home i came home and tried to go to sleep but i just couldnt. it was so bad i didnt fall asleep until 6am this morning and now im like so drained i dont feel like doing anything. tomorrow i am supposed to hang out with alexis so yahoo for that.

i like eggs

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 23:26:56 GMT

ok so far this week has been arite i guess. on monday i caddied at a golf outing sponsored by the mayor of bloomfield and there were like lots of firefighters and other people there. i caddied for mr. kliminski and mr. gaccione. so yea 2 bags>>100$. sweeeeeeet. so after that i came home and was just kinda hanging out; playing some video games and laying around and stuff. then mulroy called me cuz swim team training camp got cancelled and stuff so he came over my house instead. so he got here and then we had some alcoholic beverages, watched i love the 90's, went on the internet and to angrynakedpat.com to watch some fat kid sing about playing basketball shirts and skins. then we made some cereal with lots of sugar. after that we made eggs which were damn good. thus the title *I LIKE EGGS*. then we beat grand theft auto 3 so yahoo for us we are cool like that. after that we were going to see napoleon dynamite so we started calling people but titnle couldnt go and then alexis cudnt go so we were going to be a sad gay couple together. then liana wanted to go with us but she had to be home at 10 so we decided to just go get dinner that way she cud be home at 10.

yesterday was like really really boring and absolutely nothing fun happened except going to the gym and it is kind of sad when that is the highlight of someone's day.

today was kinda the same way. i went to work at like 2ish but there was a giant hurricane/monsoon/tornado/thunderstorm thingy so i had to run for my life and didnt hafta work. then i slept for like 3-4 hours when i got home. now mulroy is on his way here so we can go see napoleon dynamite which will be fun but i am still upsetto beeecause...BLINK IS PLAYING ON THE TEEN CHOICE AWARDS TONITE AND I'M GONNA MISS IT. soooooooo if u read this before like 8 or watever tape it for me pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease and then u will be my new bestest friend.

so yea im done writing for today....

6 Flags tomorrow so yahoo.

later,

Jones

BLINK!

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 21:25:15 GMT

OK! This is the band survey which i stole from Harry who stole it from Charley who stole it from Christine. Hope ya guys don't mind.

BLINK182 SURVEY

Pick a band and answer the questions in lyrics:
Ladies and Gentlemen...for your listening pleasure....
BLink182!

1. Are you a boy or girl:
“I’m always nervous on
Days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move
Cause I’m a fucking boy”

2. Describe yourself:
“I’m sick
Of always hearing
Sappy love songs
On the radio
This place is fucking cursed in its plague
And I can never escape
When my heart it explodes yea”

3. How do some people feel about you:
-“I know I’m pathetic
I knew when, she said it”
-“I can’t be too cool in a tree with my pants down”

4. How do you feel about yourself:
“Young and stupid
Left wide open
Hearts are wasted
Lives are broken”

5. Describe your boyrfriend/girlfriend/interest:
-“She’s so smart and independent
I don’t think she needs me
Quite half as much as I know I need her,
I wonder why there’s not another
Guy that she’d prefer”
-“Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world’s an ugly place
But you’re so beautiful to me”
-“The look in your eyes makes me crazy”

6. Where would you rather be:
“I’m wastin’ time thinkin’ about a girl
And stealin her away from her world
She and I would run away
I’d think of all the things I’d say”

7. Describe what you want to be:
“I wanna be what you want me to be
But it’s so damn hard to keep playin the part of the fool
Week after week”

8. Describe how you live:
“Break a window and bust a wall
Makin fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud
Charge the pizza to the house”

9. Describe how you love:
“I swear that I
Can go on forever, again
Please let me know that my one bad day, will end
I will go down, as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips, and with one kiss, we begin...”

10. Share a few words of wisdom:
“This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How could you say you meant anything
Different to anyone standing alone
On the street with a cigarette
On the first night we met

Look to the past
And remember and smile
And maybe tonight
I can breath for awhile
I’m not in the scene
I think I’m fallin asleep
But then all that it means
Is I’LL ALWAYS BE DREAMING OF YOU”